Tuesday

today at work a baby ripped the nipple out of her bottle spilling boob juice all over my leg!  it was gross.  she laughed and i gagged.  sometimes i wonder why i like my job, but at the end of day a baby will hug me or laugh or wave and it's reasons like that i stay.  

i don't polish my nails because i don't like nail polish, but today when i was at target buying toilet paper, because we're almost out, i bought nail polish as well, but only for my toes.  i don't like it on my fingers, but i do like it on my toes.  it's a really bright color.  i like it and i think it will cheer me up at the end of the day.  just knowing that my toes are bright will get me through some of my days.  

i haven't been reading any books.  i like to read, usually before i go to bed, but i just can't get into any books lately, which reminds me, i still need to unpack my books.  what if i can't get into any books ever again and i never read another book for the rest of my life?!  i can't let that happen.

let me paint you a picture:

last night i crawled into bed with krista, we chatted.  a few minutes later julie joined us.  it was late.  things that wouldn't normally make me laugh, made me laugh a lot.  julie made her foot talk like a southern bell.  krista was sleeping but still talking.  i tried to go to my own bed and they wouldn't let me.  i laughed a lot last night.  it's reasons like that i love living here.  oh yeah, and yesterday julie scared me in the dining room and i screamed really loud and it scared her and then she screamed and then we both fell to the floor laughing.  we laughed for a really long time.  yesterday was a good day.  lots of laughing.

i'm laughing right now because the landlord came to fix the toilet and he opened it and said, "oh yeah, oh man, yeah, that is bad.  hmmm, let's see."  i wonder what was in there...

yes, it has finally happened, i live in a house, with great girls, and as of today, beautiful blinds.  sometimes it's fun being a grown up.  

things i like about being a grown up:

pulling into my driveway (which i don't do often because i park in a parking lot by a church)

coming home to my roommates

long talks about boys

unloading the dishwasher

i don't like:

paying bills

making sure doors are locked

making sure lights are off

life is good these days, for the most part

thank you little boy riding a bike and wearing a helmet for waving at me.  you made me smile all the way home.

i'm moving.  it's happening, right now, as i type.  well, not really as i type, but before i started typing i was moving.  a few boxes now clutter the beautiful home that i am going to share with four beautiful girls.  i couldn't be happier.

i'm disappointed, a little bit in myself but mostly with some people around me.  i wish i could tell them, but i won't.  instead i will be angry and cry a little and then get over it.  i'm not sure that's very healthy, but neither is taco bell and i still eat that.  

i've started biting my nails again.  i used to bite them when i was little but stopped one day.  i kicked the habit cold turkey.  i've started again though.  i don't know why, it usually happens at work which is really gross, i have to wash my hands a lot because i realize they have just been in my mouth.  then i have to file them right away because i don't want them to be uneven.  i think i have too much stress or anxiety over something. 

my eyes are tired.  goodnight world

it's official

friends, or friend, i think only one person reads this, but to whom in may concern, i have purchased a vehicle!!!!  it's very exciting.  i love it, it's pretty, and i park it at work so i can have a clear view from my classroom.  i may be a little obsessed.  

i like reading.  i finally finished the last harry potter book and it was fantastic.  i was nervous and i cried.  i'm going to miss you harry.

i started the diary of a wimpy kid, which is a young adult book, but very funny.  i'm only a few pages from being done and i just started it.  i can't wait to read the second.  and then i will read an adult book, maybe.

i'm not sure what to do with my hair these days.  i don't know if it should be long, or short, or medium, or blonde or brown or red.  man oh man, it's hard being a girl yet again.  

i want to go on a date.  perhaps, watching the bachlorette (i don't know how to spell that) is not the best choice because i'm really jealous that she gets to go on all these really beautiful dates and i'm reading children's books.  lame.  

today i am happy.  so very happy.  i am going to a comedy club tonight and i'm really pumped about it.  i feel like a grown up going out on the town on a friday night.  it will be a good time with friends and lots of laughter...oh i can't wait!!

still no new car.  it's getting really annoying.  i'm going out with my dad tomorrow again and hopefully i will figure things out, like exactly what i want.  i think i have commitment issues.  it's hard to commit to one car for practically the rest of my life.  i guess when it's right, i'll know.  just like with a man.  oh yikes

there are 2 things i never wear because they make me feel like a little girl playing grown up.  the 2 things are a blouse and lipstick.  just the word "blouse" makes me feel old, but i'm wearing one tonight and i think i can handle it.  i'm also wearing lipstick, i think i might wipe it off and go with my trusty carmex.  a little growing up at a time.  

my papers are done and now i just have to study for finals!!!!  it's so exciting.  i can't wait to get summer started.  

i like to watch real world.  i know it's kind of trashy, but i love it.  especially this season in hollywood, intense.  

i just did a crossword puzzle and word search.  it was fun.  turns out i'm not so good at crossword puzzles but i am awesome at word searches.  i think i will get one of those big word search books and do them all the time.  i'm sure it will make me sharp.  i tried sudoku and i liked it, but i cheated because the book had the answers.  i need to get a word search book with no answers.

it's about seven thirty and i'm ready for bed.  i could probably go to sleep right now.  sadly, i can not.  i have lots of papers to write for school.  i don't know why i wait until the last minute.  i knew about these papers the whole semester.  i need to stop procrastinating.  

i've had a great weekend.  i have been blessed with some truly amazing friends.  i like when john mayer tells me my body is a wonderland.  that might be inappropriate to say, but that's how i roll.