life is good today

i'm going to write a book.  i know what it's going to be about and the title.  i'm not going to tell anyone due to copyright issues.  i don't want anyone to steal my idea.  i also know who the main character is going to be.  it's going to be funny, and eye opening.  i think i'm going to start writing it tonight, right now.

i have chapped hands and it's summer time.  who has chapped hands in the summer?  i'm so confused.  they're even cracking.  i can't seem to find a lotion that helps with this.  any suggestions?

i'm on a seafood kick.  i like to eat tuna, tonight i had crab cakes, and i also bought salmon.  i'm not really sure how to cook the salmon, but i bought it and i'll figure it out.  

i forget how funny "Friends" is.  i like watching the older episodes and laughing a lot. i was never allowed to watch it growing up, but now that i'm a grown woman and live on my own, i watch it all the time.  

i hate to be a debbie downer, but here i go.  yesterday evening our family had to put our dog to sleep. our dog who we had for 18 years to the date.  i remember the day we went to pick out ruff.  i was really mad that he got to ride home on my brothers lap, but then he scratched my brother so i wasn't mad after that.  it's funny how a pet becomes part of your family.  it's really sad saying goodbye.  

i thin i'm going gluten free.  i got a book and a cookbook out on it, not from the library though because i can never go back there again.  my mom checked them out for me.  she does not know that i am very irresponsible with a library card.  a lot of the recipes have beets in them.  i may have to do some alterations with those recipes.  

i like summer, and it's almost here.  i'm going to write a song about it, probably not.

pockets

this evening i went through some of my vest pockets.  these are the things i found:

ticket stubs

pennies, lots and lots of pennies

mints

receipts

all these things were not found in the same vest, but most of them were.  i was a little annoyed that i found so many pennies, i like the silver change better but i may take my pennies and cash them if for silver money, or maybe even green money.  i do like the green money.  

i'm a messy person.  i have messy emotions.  i cry a lot for no reason.  some may call me overly sensitive.  and i am kind of sloppy.  i leave all my clothes on the floor.  i also have a lot of mail every where and magazines.  

i don't like when i'm home alone and the house starts to make weird house noises.  it weirds me out.

i really enjoy gossip magazines.  i don't know why.  i will never meet a celebrity, i don't even really care to.  that's not true.  it is my life long dream to meet a celebrity, have my picture taken with them, and then become famous myself and star in a soap opera.  anyways, i read the magazines.  my favorite is US weekly.  i really like the "they're just like us" section where they take pictures of stars filling up on gas, drinking coffee, having a fat day, you know, the usual thing us non celebrities do too.  i don't really know why i decided to right about that.  maybe because i'm looking at the magazines right now.  what a guilty pleasure.

i really do like living in chicago, except when it's april, supposed to be spring, and snowing outside.  i've lived here all my life and it still surprises me.  it's so nasty outside right now.  

i have peanut butter m&m's in my pantry. i just found them today.  i forgot i bought them.  it was like finding a buried treasure!  and i do mean buried, our pantry is very full.  

once in a while i enjoy watching deadliest catch.  the new season starts on april 14 and it looks very intense and very exciting.  i think i will watch it as one of my regular shows.  i even marked my calendar.  i mean business.  

laundry

i don't know why i decide at 9:30 to do laundry.  oh, and i mean 9:30 pm.  if it was the am that would be okay, but by 9:30 at night it's already too late and i want to go to bed, but i can't because i need jeans for jeans day at work.  i do NOT pass up a jeans day.  instead of going to do laundry i thought it would be a good idea to blog about how much i hate doing laundry, especially at night.

i decided i don't eat enough veggies.  i'm going on a veggie diet for the weekend.  tonight i ate a whole bag of peas.  so good.  i looked for lima beans, but i don't think they're a very popular veggie because i couldn't find any.  it's really too bad because they're my favorite.  i don't know why they are, maybe because they look like little hearts.  it's a loving veggie.  

i like grapefruit juice.  i'm drinking some right now. mmmmmm, refreshing.  

i really need to do this laundry.  i wish i could invent a washing machine that only took 5 minutes.  it would be super powerful.  one day, one day my friends.

alone

this summer i had a goal to do things alone.  things such as eating alone, having coffee alone, and going to a movie alone.  these things were really intimidating.  mostly because i thought everyone would be looking at me wondering why i was alone.  where are all her friends?  i guess i was pretty insecure.  one summer day i headed out into the town i live in walking to a busy section to have a glass of passion iced tea lemonade by myself.  i did it.  it wasn't so bad.  some people stared, but i think it's just because i'm extremely good looking, just kidding, but seriously.  after my lemonade i headed over and got a salad from panera and sat outside, by myself.  again, it really wasn't so bad.  nobody was staring, there were even other people by themselves.  i thought why not do it all in one day.  after my salad i headed over to the movie theater and bought one ticket to see sisterhood of the traveling pants 2.  i bought a popcorn and a small diet coke, for one, and went into the theater.  i sat in the very top row in a seat very far away.  i really liked going to the movie by myself.  since then i've been more comfortable doing things by myself.  sometimes at work during my break i'll head over to the coffee shop and sit and read.  one day i even ate at chipotle by myself.  my favorite thing is the movie though.  it's like going on a date with myself.  it's really good alone time.  good thinking time.  i went to see another movie by myself a few weeks ago.  it was he's just not that into you.  talk about a big dose of honesty, whoa baby.  after i left the movie i had a little conversation with myself and then dropped myself off at home.  this evening i felt the urge to take myself on another date.  i saw confessions of a shopaholic.  i got myself a little bag of peanut m & m's and a diet coke and sat in the middle row in the middle seat.  i loved it.  the movie was good.  it made very thankful that i don't need to shop and fill a void in my life with things.  i do enjoy shopping, but not to fill voids.  i like taking myself on dates.  i would encourage all of you to take yourself on a date.  you just might find out that you're a keeper, that you are really great.  i like being alone.  please don't think that when i say that i mean lonely.  i am far from lonely.  i have great friends and a wonderful family.  there is no loneliness here.  i've just found that i'm getting to a point of contentment.  a place of comfort with being by myself, figuring out how great i am, that i just might be a keeper.

ear buds

i don't usually listen to my ipod because the earbuds hurt my ears.  not because i have the volume up too high, it's because they are uncomfortable.  my ears feel like they are all bruised when i take them out.  maybe not bruised, just very tender to the touch.  i listened to my ipod a lot this weekend on the train to visit my sister and every time i would take the earbuds out i would make a little "ouch" sound.  i can not live my life this way.  i want to go get old school cover my whole ear so i don't have to stick anything in them headphones.  

my sister told me i should be a writer.  maybe i will.  i don't know how to become a writer.  i know what i would wear if i became a writer.  my pajamas.  and i would drink tea all day and wear really cool reading glasses.  i think i would be a little crazy too.  if you're a writer you have to be a little crazy.