i can't stop it

turns out peter pan doesn't exist and he is not coming to take me to never neverland and i do have to grow up after all.  i work 40 hours a week, i go to school, i once in a while do homework, and now i have a budget.  this is freakin' me out.  i like it though.  it just keeps getting more and more exciting, minus the budget, that's not exciting at all.  the part that is exciting is the seeing where life is taking you, the lessons that you've learned, and the new things you discover about yourself.  i like it even though the future freaks me out.  

i really enjoy the smell of new books, especially text books.  while attempting homework tonight all i did was smell my book instead of actually reading it.  i don't think the teacher will buy it as a good enough excuse.