christmas memories

i start a new class tonight which is so silly. it will start tonight and then go on break for 3 weeks. it took all the energy i had to get here tonight. i still want to be on christmas vacation. i'm sitting in the computer lab killing some time before i have to go into class. i'm typing really fast so everyone thinks i'm super smart and writing a long paper just for fun. i'm in here thinking about some of my favorite christmas memories. would you like to hear them?
-the year we got all our presents on christmas eve. it was the christmas that i got my american girl doll. oh, i loved her so much. i'm pretty sure i brushed her hair everyday, which is more than i brush my own hair. we all opened our presents and then watched a christmas carol and ate crunch and munch. it was really fun.
-all the christmas' that my sister and i would find our presents. if they were clothes, we would usually end up trying them on. we were awful.
-this isn't christmas, it's birthday, but they're close so it doesn't matter. i think i was five, maybe older, but i got a precious moments bible and a totally hair barbie. the barbie came with gel. i think i used all of it for my own hair. anyways, those were the two best presents ever. sometimes i still read that precious moments bible.
-last christmas when the roommates and i went and picked out our christmas tree and then set it up at home listening to carols. it was a fun bonding/tradition setting moment.
-every christmas that my great grandma would make santa claus out of the huge apples. it was the neatest thing. she would put cloves in the apple as his buttons and every year i would somehow eat one and every year i would spit it out because it's so gross. i never learn.
-i got a baby doll from my grandma. it was a boy and i named him michael james, i called him mikey for short. if you moved the baby the right way it would say, "mama." i carried that little guy every where i went until i think i was about 22. just kidding. 17. no no no, i must have been 12. i loved him so much.

i have two clementine oranges sitting in my purse and i really want to eat them before class, but there is a sign that says no food. and when you peel oranges the whole room you're in smells like them. i don't want to make these people jealous and i really don't want to share.

dreams

last night i had a dream about starbucks.  it's weird because i don't work at starbucks.  in my dream i was working with kirsta and i didn't know how to make coffee so i was just taking the orders and writing on the cups, but i didn't know the correct abbreviations so i just wrote everything the customer said on the cup and it was really funny.  i woke and thought to myself, "i will never be able to work at starbucks."

i ordered text books on monday and today they came.  homework can start now.  i'm very excited.  we'll see how long the excitement lasts.  i'm going to start reading as soon as i'm done blogging and wasting time on facebook. oh, and when america's next top model is over.  so glad it's back.  i've been forgetting to smile with my eyes, not anymore, thanks for the reminder tyra.  i'll be practicing all season.  

today i watched seven pounds.  whoa.  that was a hard, eye opening, heartbreaking movie.  i liked it, but i sure did cry.  to follow up that movie i watched she's the man.  i also cried during that one too, but only because i was laughing so much.  i didn't remember it being that funny.  i'll be watching it again soon.

i had my first americano yesterday.  it was good.  i drank it at about 730 in the pm and i was still in bed by 1030.  what if caffeine doesn't effect me?  what if i've built up a tolerance to it?  i might have to consult webmd about this.  see what happens when there is a caffeine tolerance and how to cure it.  i want it cured.  

in other news, i'm ready for fall and puffy vests. 

race

today i learned children love to race.  especially uphill.  it doesn't matter how out of shape you are or how much you detest running, they still want to race and they want you to let them win.  if i'm forced to run uphill, i'm not letting you win.  does that make me mean? no, it makes me competitive, even against a five year old with a back-pack.  

lydia-you're shoes untied.

funny man-i know

lydia-you're going to trip

funny man-no, i'm going to trip you!

sharpie pens and cubs games

the first of the school supplies have been purchases.  sharpie pens.  i don't know why i like them so much, i just do.  those and papermate ones.  i usually like pens that you have to click not with a cap.  teachers used to reprimand me during class because i would be clicking my pen and not even noticing it.  if it has a cap though i chew on it.  maybe i should start using a pencil.  i'm getting more and more excited about school by the day.  a lot of my credits transferred which is great, and i'm really excited to start taking classes again.  

tomorrow i'm going to a cubs game.  a bunch of us are going and we're sitting in the bleachers.  i don't care how good or bad the cubs are doing i still like to see them play.  it's just fun being at a game.  goal for tomorrow: make a new friend.  another goal: don't get beer spilled on me by rowdy fans.

it's really happening

well folks, it's happened.  today i got an e-mail letting me know that i have been accepted into Trinity International University!!!  wowza, i am excited.  no one was home to celebrate with me so i yelled around the house for a little and then made a few calls.  i told me my mom and started crying a little, i'm pretty sure she was too.  krista did a great job of being excited with me.  i can't believe it.  i went to community college and then stopped for a number of reasons, but one was i was too afraid to apply anywhere else.  i have an intense fear of rejection.  today i feel pretty proud of myself.  i'll start sept. 22.  i already have a list of school supplies.  i'm too excited and happy to do anything.  i don't need to clean, i was just accepted to college.  so what if i showered an hour ago and i'm still sitting in my towel, i was just accepted to college.

in other news, i hate working out but i do it anyway, at least once a month.  

life is good today

i'm going to write a book.  i know what it's going to be about and the title.  i'm not going to tell anyone due to copyright issues.  i don't want anyone to steal my idea.  i also know who the main character is going to be.  it's going to be funny, and eye opening.  i think i'm going to start writing it tonight, right now.

i have chapped hands and it's summer time.  who has chapped hands in the summer?  i'm so confused.  they're even cracking.  i can't seem to find a lotion that helps with this.  any suggestions?

i'm on a seafood kick.  i like to eat tuna, tonight i had crab cakes, and i also bought salmon.  i'm not really sure how to cook the salmon, but i bought it and i'll figure it out.  

i forget how funny "Friends" is.  i like watching the older episodes and laughing a lot. i was never allowed to watch it growing up, but now that i'm a grown woman and live on my own, i watch it all the time.  

i hate to be a debbie downer, but here i go.  yesterday evening our family had to put our dog to sleep. our dog who we had for 18 years to the date.  i remember the day we went to pick out ruff.  i was really mad that he got to ride home on my brothers lap, but then he scratched my brother so i wasn't mad after that.  it's funny how a pet becomes part of your family.  it's really sad saying goodbye.  

i thin i'm going gluten free.  i got a book and a cookbook out on it, not from the library though because i can never go back there again.  my mom checked them out for me.  she does not know that i am very irresponsible with a library card.  a lot of the recipes have beets in them.  i may have to do some alterations with those recipes.  

i like summer, and it's almost here.  i'm going to write a song about it, probably not.

pockets

this evening i went through some of my vest pockets.  these are the things i found:

ticket stubs

pennies, lots and lots of pennies

mints

receipts

all these things were not found in the same vest, but most of them were.  i was a little annoyed that i found so many pennies, i like the silver change better but i may take my pennies and cash them if for silver money, or maybe even green money.  i do like the green money.  

i'm a messy person.  i have messy emotions.  i cry a lot for no reason.  some may call me overly sensitive.  and i am kind of sloppy.  i leave all my clothes on the floor.  i also have a lot of mail every where and magazines.  

i don't like when i'm home alone and the house starts to make weird house noises.  it weirds me out.

i really enjoy gossip magazines.  i don't know why.  i will never meet a celebrity, i don't even really care to.  that's not true.  it is my life long dream to meet a celebrity, have my picture taken with them, and then become famous myself and star in a soap opera.  anyways, i read the magazines.  my favorite is US weekly.  i really like the "they're just like us" section where they take pictures of stars filling up on gas, drinking coffee, having a fat day, you know, the usual thing us non celebrities do too.  i don't really know why i decided to right about that.  maybe because i'm looking at the magazines right now.  what a guilty pleasure.

i really do like living in chicago, except when it's april, supposed to be spring, and snowing outside.  i've lived here all my life and it still surprises me.  it's so nasty outside right now.  

i have peanut butter m&m's in my pantry. i just found them today.  i forgot i bought them.  it was like finding a buried treasure!  and i do mean buried, our pantry is very full.  

once in a while i enjoy watching deadliest catch.  the new season starts on april 14 and it looks very intense and very exciting.  i think i will watch it as one of my regular shows.  i even marked my calendar.  i mean business.  

laundry

i don't know why i decide at 9:30 to do laundry.  oh, and i mean 9:30 pm.  if it was the am that would be okay, but by 9:30 at night it's already too late and i want to go to bed, but i can't because i need jeans for jeans day at work.  i do NOT pass up a jeans day.  instead of going to do laundry i thought it would be a good idea to blog about how much i hate doing laundry, especially at night.

i decided i don't eat enough veggies.  i'm going on a veggie diet for the weekend.  tonight i ate a whole bag of peas.  so good.  i looked for lima beans, but i don't think they're a very popular veggie because i couldn't find any.  it's really too bad because they're my favorite.  i don't know why they are, maybe because they look like little hearts.  it's a loving veggie.  

i like grapefruit juice.  i'm drinking some right now. mmmmmm, refreshing.  

i really need to do this laundry.  i wish i could invent a washing machine that only took 5 minutes.  it would be super powerful.  one day, one day my friends.

alone

this summer i had a goal to do things alone.  things such as eating alone, having coffee alone, and going to a movie alone.  these things were really intimidating.  mostly because i thought everyone would be looking at me wondering why i was alone.  where are all her friends?  i guess i was pretty insecure.  one summer day i headed out into the town i live in walking to a busy section to have a glass of passion iced tea lemonade by myself.  i did it.  it wasn't so bad.  some people stared, but i think it's just because i'm extremely good looking, just kidding, but seriously.  after my lemonade i headed over and got a salad from panera and sat outside, by myself.  again, it really wasn't so bad.  nobody was staring, there were even other people by themselves.  i thought why not do it all in one day.  after my salad i headed over to the movie theater and bought one ticket to see sisterhood of the traveling pants 2.  i bought a popcorn and a small diet coke, for one, and went into the theater.  i sat in the very top row in a seat very far away.  i really liked going to the movie by myself.  since then i've been more comfortable doing things by myself.  sometimes at work during my break i'll head over to the coffee shop and sit and read.  one day i even ate at chipotle by myself.  my favorite thing is the movie though.  it's like going on a date with myself.  it's really good alone time.  good thinking time.  i went to see another movie by myself a few weeks ago.  it was he's just not that into you.  talk about a big dose of honesty, whoa baby.  after i left the movie i had a little conversation with myself and then dropped myself off at home.  this evening i felt the urge to take myself on another date.  i saw confessions of a shopaholic.  i got myself a little bag of peanut m & m's and a diet coke and sat in the middle row in the middle seat.  i loved it.  the movie was good.  it made very thankful that i don't need to shop and fill a void in my life with things.  i do enjoy shopping, but not to fill voids.  i like taking myself on dates.  i would encourage all of you to take yourself on a date.  you just might find out that you're a keeper, that you are really great.  i like being alone.  please don't think that when i say that i mean lonely.  i am far from lonely.  i have great friends and a wonderful family.  there is no loneliness here.  i've just found that i'm getting to a point of contentment.  a place of comfort with being by myself, figuring out how great i am, that i just might be a keeper.

ear buds

i don't usually listen to my ipod because the earbuds hurt my ears.  not because i have the volume up too high, it's because they are uncomfortable.  my ears feel like they are all bruised when i take them out.  maybe not bruised, just very tender to the touch.  i listened to my ipod a lot this weekend on the train to visit my sister and every time i would take the earbuds out i would make a little "ouch" sound.  i can not live my life this way.  i want to go get old school cover my whole ear so i don't have to stick anything in them headphones.  

my sister told me i should be a writer.  maybe i will.  i don't know how to become a writer.  i know what i would wear if i became a writer.  my pajamas.  and i would drink tea all day and wear really cool reading glasses.  i think i would be a little crazy too.  if you're a writer you have to be a little crazy.